weight

Your weight's been lifted off this state

but you're not as gone as I'd hoped

I can feel myself

embracing the chaos,

consuming the loss

So swallow it like a lump in your throat

Choke back the tears, 

and let yourself go.

These lines

lead no one to nowhere

You're drifting in oceans alone

Inside this new resolution

to stay up until you're afloat

You're piecing together

patterns to call yourself home

And I can feel

I can feel you over me

but not like an angel, 

you've never had wings

So meet me where the rocks

and pills turn red

I'm fighting to burn

this into your head

but you're the breath,

pulling me in,

staining your lips.

And I can feel

I can feel you over me

but not like an angel, 

you never got your wings

I'll drag you away

piece by piece

Until you forget about me

I'm the ashes that fall

into the street

Destroying the ground underneath.

let's pretend we know how this works

Do you remember
when I confessed to you my dreams
the ones that were tearing me
at my seams
the ones that were pulling out the threads
of sanity
the threads of stability

Do you remember
anything?
Do you remember
anything at all?

Can you recall 

the fall
that night I screamed myself to sleep
the night you should have left
but I felt your head pushing down the pillow
I felt you stay with me

Do you remember
anything?
Do you remember
anything at all?

I’ve left plenty behind
a dirty tangled mess
of broken people,
blurry hearts
memories that don’t exist

I just can't remember
anything
no, I don’t recall
anything at all.